Merry Christmas Eve!! How is this possible?! I am still trying to get my Thanksgiving post accomplished, but time is seriously flying! With the welcomed extended break from IVF and much of my usual writing time dedicated to helping with Meggie and Brent’s wedding plans [I am already SUPER excited for their big day in 2016!!], the blog was briefly placed on the back burner, but December has been quite busy for us.
We returned from St. Louis to San Diego on Saturday Nov. 28th, and I was supposed to be back at work, but instead, spent 2.5 hours at urgent care and the remainder of the day on the couch. It was beyond awful. I wasn’t feeling awesome before leaving for our trip, but didn’t think much of it. Some sort of flu bug combined lack of sleep and increased festivities, made for a miserable few days. I had a brutal cough, sore throat, intense congestion, my head felt like it weighed 50 pounds, my ears were killing me, and I sounded like a man. I was put on antibiotic and prescription cough medicine, and finally felt better about 8 days later. Ugh.
I will share through pictures what we have been up to…
This Christmas season we have had our fair share of fires and hot chocolate while covered in cozy blankets…not to mention a LOT of Christmas movies! We have watched roughly 15, give or take, since the beginning of December. The five on my list every year are Love Actually, The Holiday, Home Alone, Elf, and of course, Christmas Vacation. Chris is Mr. Christmas, so naturally a few more have been added to the list. We love our pretty tree, outdoor lights, everything Christmas! I am already dreading the de-Christmasing which will likely happen after Hawaii.
I would be remiss if I did not share some big news…Chris is in the championship in one of his fantasy football leagues. It was VERY close, and he pulled out the victory with a 0.5-point win. Sorry Johnny! On a serious note work wise, Chris had an absolutely outstanding month! No need to get into detail, but am extremely proud of the success he and Rusty achieved with their hard work! Congrats boys!
On the IVF front, I have been anxiously waiting for the time of the month to arrive so I could begin meds for my third and final cycle. Well, wouldn’t you know, it was taking its damn time, causing a tiny bit of worry. I have been extremely regular, like clockwork, for as long as I know, and was expecting an arrival this past Friday. Well come Monday, now 3ish days late, still no sign. Come the hell on Aunt Flow, let’s get this show on the road.
I thought…Oh my God, I BETTER NOT BE PREGNANT [unless of course we could absolutely guarantee it to be a perfectly normal and healthy pregnancy, which is very doubtful.] If this is another miscarriage or ectopic, we would be delayed months.
For days, I had a hard time concentrating on anything. Chris suggested taking a test, but I couldn’t bring myself to do that because if that stupid test said “pregnant” or had the two pink lines, I would absolutely freak, and not in a great way.
FINALLY, the cramps kicked in Monday afternoon, and we are good to go! In fact yesterday morning I began the testosterone gel, and last night had the first dose of birth control pills, which will inevitably make me feel like hell, nausea galore…Merry Christmas to me! I will actually welcome it because it means we are that much closer.
I will be on these meds for approximately 3 weeks, then stimulation medication (injections and pills) for approximately 10-13 days, followed by my third retrieval! I am thinking the tentative date will be January 25th. If my monthly cycle would have started on time, I could have had the retrieval on a weekend, which would have been ideal, oh well. The third cycle fun will happen in the brand new clinic, which, oh my God, looks AMAZING.
When I was heading to Acu the other evening, I was being nosy (shocking) and popped my head in to check it out, as they are moving just next door to the existing clinic. Two people from the moving company invited me in to check it out, specifically the lab. There is a huge glass window that looks into the lab. I thought, Oh my gosh, this is where my future children are going to be made and stored. Pretty incredible that we will now be able to see these miracle workers [embryologists] in action. I want the flooring, countertops, lighting, and furniture for my own home. The entire place is beautiful!
Chris and I will be spending Christmas with his family in Palm Springs, and we then head to Kauai early next week. I assume I will not be back to the blog until after the new year, but will have my standard Desert Instagram posts. I sincerely thank each and every one of you for the incredible love and support we have felt this year. Please know I am forever grateful.
I am very hopeful 2016 will be OUR year! I am wishing you and your families a VERY Merry Christmas and all the best in the New Year!
Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe, and have faith that everything will work out for the best. – Robert Tew