Hello to all the lovely people who are reading this! Hope you had a nice weekend. As I posted to FB and Insta last week…
I took my last birth control pill Friday April 8th (THANK GOD!) I do NOT want to see those nasty little things for a very LONG time…or at least until we transfer baby #2.
My ultrasound Monday April 11th showed quiet ovaries (what we wanted) and thin lining (what we expected), but the lining needs to grow grow grow. I started estrogen pills, the first of hundreds, (Hello, bloat!) April 12th. The side effects are strange, and the headaches have been no joke. I had one last over 24 hours that even Acu couldn’t fix.
Others fun ones include:
- Nausea, vomiting, bloating (FUN FUN)
- Breast pain, tenderness, swelling (Always enjoyable)
- Freckles or darkening of facial skin (not sure how many more freckles I could add, but wouldn’t mind darker facial skin ha)
- Loss of scalp hair (AWESOME, I have already lost so much.)
- Changes in mood (WONDERFUL, watch out everyone) and much more
After nearly FIVE freaking weeks, I FINALLY stopped bleeding this past Saturday, only to have pretty intense cramps / ovary pain and severe nausea kick in Sunday afternoon. The pain / discomfort has not eased up, and I am currently waiting on a potentially calming email back from Dr. F. If I am ovulating I will completely lose my mind.
I have noticed I am holding my breath, clenching my jaw, keeping my shoulders tense…all likely with an elevated BP or heart rate. I know this is unhealthy.
Last week when I asked about ovulating…Dr. F said it “would be highly unlikely.” Acu said, “You shouldn’t ovulate. Shouldn’t that is.” As we know, I am the furthest thing from textbook.
As I sit here today, I am absolutely 100% convinced ovulation is occurring. This would be beyond HORRIBLE…our FET cycle will get canceled…who knows when we would transfer…our due date is later than expected…that is all IF it even works on the first try.
[I have since gotten an email back: There is no need to come in today. We will do an ultrasound and bloodwork tomorrow and see what is going on. Please don’t worry! I’ll look forward to seeing you tomorrow. 🙂
I guess I have entirely thrown the power of positive thinking out the window. That was short lived.
I know my body, and I know it well. I have been a psycho psychic when it comes to predicting what is going on with it. I REALLY hope I am VERY wrong with this, but we will find out when I have my ultrasound and blood work tomorrow/Tuesday April 19th, at 11:30a.
Me trying to force myself to think happy thoughts at this VERY moment:
- I am hungry. (Kidding…just don’t throw up in the office.)
- Cramps feel better. (OUCH, nope!)
- Weather is beautiful! (But it isn’t going to last for our guests.)
- Blues are leading the Blackhawks 2-1 in the playoffs! (The Hawks are dirty and scary.)
- Celebrating 33! (More like pretending it isn’t happening. How the hell am I going to be 33?)
- Patrick and Lauren arrive Wednesday! (But that means a goodbye happens Monday.)
- Cardinals / Padres game Saturday! (The Cards tend to lose when I go to games in SD.)
Welcome to the negative, crazed world I am living in.
Chris is Mr. Positive, but it doesn’t help me much. I hate hormones, but I hate constant worry even more. Since we have had so much negative in this journey, so much bad news, I am used to feeling this way. I don’t like it, but can’t help it.
I appreciate the love and prayers for our appointment and my sanity. Lots of love to you! Xo
In trying to put my mind elsewhere, here are some pictures from our life as of late which includes a LOT of champagne, beach, beautiful sunsets, and Reese per usual:
As a total side note – My parents are selling their rental home, 62 St. Charles Place…great family friendly neighborhood, beautiful home, nearly 1600 SF, on a quarter of an acre, and in the Webster School District. We would love for the next residents to love the home as much as we all have! Please contact Justin at 314-368-7127 for additional information.
Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe, and have faith that everything will work out for the best. – Robert Tew